For so many time I thouht that life came spontaneously, and then I was introduced to the power of Choice. We create everything that sourounds us. Sounds great!
However, what do we use in order to take a decision?. For me a decision in nothing more than the sum of several pre-existent factors, some of them are complex, other ones are more straight forward, but then the so called choice is nothing more that a product of beliefs, habits, perceptions and awarness.
My actual idea is that the real power lies in those parts of our selves that we use to take the decision, and not the decission itself. Then we should work counciously and mindfully in finding our real Self, our connection with the supreme, all the best of our selves, and better decissions will be the obvious product of this process. This remainds me Jesus words: Look first for the kindom and everything else will be given as an added-value.
When I start to witness my decission process, I realize that there are too many things that participate there: Habits, beliefs, emotions, feelings, memories. Here is where the concept of "The Space" came to me, since when I witness the process from my Self - the point of light - all this things seems to sourround me. They are present in that moment of decission pushing the rope to one side or other.
Normally it is too late when the moment arises and I´m not in the right councious state. Like machine, I add the factors and decide... not allways receiving the best results...
However, since I started to journal my day-to-day, in every aftermath I discover new things that have to be worked on... Ego manifestations that I used to take my decission. Then it is the moment to do something. To take actions in order to fix whatever needs to be fixed.
As the time passes, I identify that those things are really very few, not so many as I thought previously, and now I can like all of them to the WHO AM I dilema:
1. Having a feeling of need, poverty: This is the need of like and the poverty that comes from the absense of a continuos relationship with the supreme being. He is the source of all power, and going to him recharches me and make me feel complete.
2. Going too high, falling too deep: A wrong definition of myself. I´m not good, too good... bad wise or dump... Im a soul... PERIOD... How many time I use the word "I am " in a day and what follows that word? * This is a wonderful excercise to try *.
3. Looking too close at the blackboard: this prevents me from reading what has been written there. However, standing as a soul automatically detaches me from The Space, and I can even discover more aspects, specially the ego-related ones.
4. Qualifications... usually I discover a "because I am this..." or even worst "because she/he is that"... Im a soul... and everyone else is just the same... PERIOD.
I choose... what do I use to choose? This made me think about the buddist concept of samsara "the wheel of life", because each decission tailors the next ones... and "the chain of cause-effects" keeps going and going...
I know that the wheel is not going to stop because I´m aware of been a being of light... however what do I take from my interactions and what I leave will chage a lot... and just by avoiding qualifiying others at the moment of a decission the change can be seen...
Too many useless loads that have to be released...
OM SHANTI... I´m a being of light. You and me belong to the same place... and are together there.
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